It’s a Wonderful Life

The nurse who I talked to on the phone earlier came by unexpectedly just now to give us presents and see how I was doing. We hugged a lot and I thanked her numerous times for helping calm me down earlier. She gave me a huge piece of cake and a present of various body lotion / soaps and home-made cherry jam. It was so incredibly nice and made my awful day so much better.

SSDD

Today has been really awful. I’m having horrible side effects from my medication being increased, along with stuff in my life that’s just not going well, and it’s made me absolutely psychotic. I just threw myself on my bed and was crying and screaming because I hurt so much and wanted to kill myself. My mom phoned a friend of hers who used to be a psych nurse and she talked me down from my hysteria. I feel calm again now and more put together; I just hope it lasts.

I’m so sick of this shit.