I haven’t been having a good day today. I started feeling bad last night and it’s just continued on, apparently. I’ve been in the house too much with too much focus on my problems and not enough distraction. I actually called Jake (boyfriend, ex, whatever) because I thought he might be around to go out for coffee or something, but he’s already got other plans. We might see each other during the week, but I’m not holding my breath. I’m just desperate for some kind of connection and sanity right now.
Sometimes I’m not sure how good of an idea it was to start this blog. It causes me to focus so much on my problems, and occasionally it gets to be unbearable. Things have just been really hard lately and when it gets to this level I can’t seem to rely on anything to help distance me from my problems. Maybe once school starts I’ll feel better.
