Well, it’s been quite a while since I last wrote anything here and I’ve received some concerned messages, so I thought it was time to pop in and tell you all how I’ve been doing.
I haven’t been away for any sort of negative reason. I simply just didn’t feel like writing about my life for a while.
The group I mentioned in my last post here didn’t end up working out. Or, rather, I didn’t work out with the group. I only attended once, and I didn’t have a bad experience or anything, but I couldn’t get myself to return to it. The people I’d met were wonderful, but still, the thought of sitting in a room for three hours and all talking about our problems was just … depressing to me. I have therapy every few weeks that’s one on one between me and my therapist, and that’s about all the talking I need to do when it comes to this type of stuff. It varies from person to person, but I’m someone who functions better if I focus on something other than my problems (don’t confuse this to mean that I ignore my problems entirely though).
Anyway, I’ve started going to the gym this past month and it’s really helped keep my mood up. I think exercise is one of the best anti-depressants I know of, and I know that makes me sound like “that guy,” but it’s true. I really recommend it.
I turned in a form to volunteer at the gym as well, in order to get myself out of the house and focused on something positive, and I’m waiting for a call back soon. My goal is to work my way back up to being a fully functioning member of society again, able to hold a job and whatnot. I’m hoping to return to school with a few classes this summer and fall as well.
My boyfriend and I are back together, kind of. We’ve been hanging out in the coffee shop of a local bookstore a lot lately and having lots of relaxed conversations. He’s currently in classes so he usually works on his homework and I read and we chat in between. We’re both working on our individual goals and keeping our relationship … not exactly on the back burner, but it’s nothing heavy and serious right now. It’s at an easygoing level that we’re both comfortable with that allows us to focus on ourselves first and “us” second so there’s not any crazy pressure or anything.
Anyway, I think that brings us up to date.
If I may be random at the end here and recommend some films / music:
I saw Coraline in 3D the other week and it was really fantastic, especially the attention to detail in the artwork, so I highly recommend seeing it (especially in 3D) while you can. I also really enjoyed the Swedish film Let the Right One in, which chronicles the friendship between a young boy and a vampire.
I’ll leave you now with a song I discovered yesterday and absolutely adore:
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